Revelation - Paragraph 3
Here’s today’s text:
“As to why there are different revelations and not just one, keep in mind God is not an aloof impersonal monad or an enclosed entity - a static “something.” God’s revelations are different because the nature of God is dynamic, all-inclusive and multidimensional. Like a finely cut diamond, we have to see all sides if we are to truly know God. There is also the fact that the fullness of Truth is only gradually revealed. “See God and die” indicates the fullness of God’s revelation is incompatible with earthly existence, thus a gradual accommodation is required. Indeed, it is the constant need to integrate and accommodate progressive revelations that constitutes the essence of our spiritual journey.”
In our last blog we talked about the path, which we will continue discussing except in relation to the idea of slowing unfolding. Roberts says, “Truth is only gradually revealed.” How do I understand or experience that a “gradual accommodation is required”? For myself the discovery is closely tied to the inner discovery of what I am really up to. I am indebted to the Enneagram and Russ Hudson’s teaching to help me understand I have a pattern that I prefer to live from. Having said that, it is important to note that I am not that pattern, but instead an Essence, which has a particular expression at Point Nine.
But let’s not get lost in the Enneagram here. The point is that as I make subtler discoveries of what my patterning is really up to it is directly related to that which exists me. As I work on my patterning and begin to see through and understand the patterning it relaxes, I am able to experience subtle expressions of Essence. Roberts says that “God is dynamic, all-inclusive and multidimensional. Like a finely cut diamond, we have to see all sides if we are to truly know God.” And this is what I find to be true, the longer I do the inner work the more “dynamic, all-inclusive and multidimensional” God or Reality appears. What I believe is actually happening is that Reality is always “dynamic, all-inclusive and multidimensional” but my capacity to bear it and participate in it grows.
God is not one thing, nor am I. I must be willing to become present to the exact happenings of the moment, whatever they may be. For instance, I can come upon a frustrating situation and either get lost in thoughts and feelings about the situation staying attached to my identifications of who I believe myself to be, or I can let go, surrender, into what is happening including the felt sense of my body, which moves me through to a new discovery. If only the actual process deconstructing identifications were as easy as writing that sentence!
The text asks me to show up, over and over and over again, to this process of letting go and surrender, to trust the inner work process instead of getting lost in the thoughts or feelings. It is so easy to think about what is happening instead of just experiencing it and learning from it. This is not an easy learning. Why? Because my identifications do not believe in the process. My identifications do not want me to do the process because the identifications believe that if I let go of them they won’t exist, and they are correct. They also don’t like this process because it feels like losing pieces of myself, which I am. At the end of the day it can be a very painful process.
How do I adhere with what the text asks of me, to experience instead of think me way out of life? Well, some days are better than others. When I can stick with the process, and truly allow my felt sense or experience of a situation to fill in, then a certain loosening up happens and I can move through the situation with less attention on my identifications. This is a phenomenal gift. When I can’t stick with the process and become lost in thought or feeling nothing new arises. The same old identified me shows up, which is fine. No judgement. Sometimes I must repeatedly experience the structured identifications, over and over and over again, to finally work through them and gain some insight into a belief or value system I am holding on to, identifying with.
Such is the way of my very ordinary life, sometimes deeply identified with what I take myself to be and other times not so much. There is enough material in each day to provide the experiences, which I call food, for this transformation process. Eat up!
