Foundations of all Revelations - Paragraphs 2 and 3
In our last blog Roberts said, “There is in every human being a “knowing” that ever remains pre-intellectual and preconscious. The mind has no access to this knowing….[it] is simply “there”, yet nowhere in particular. Today she goes on to say:
“Though speaking of this knowing makes it a piece of knowledge, it can never be that. While people can affirm this knowing, they cannot say how they do so. Thus speaking of it to others, I have been met with both instant recognition and total denial. So despite its universal nature, this knowing is recognized by some and not by others. Of course, when hearing of this “knowing” everyone automatically wonders “what” this knowing knows.
Yet the only answer that would satisfy the mind is something that could be intellectually identified or grasped, which is not what this knowing knows. What this knowing knows is never available to the intellect because it never arose from the intellect in the first place. It is a totally different type of knowing. Indeed, there is more to ourselves than we know!”
These paragraphs feel like a wild ride indeed and her experience of people either getting it, this idea of a knowing beyond our intellect, or not getting it is a true statement. For some people, Roberts’ words may seem no more than an unsolvable riddle and for others, who may be interested in such riddles, the obtuseness of a knowing that knows is difficult to apprehend. Frankly, in sitting with these words I am wondering what I could write or add to what she has already said that would make any sense at all.
My own sense of this knowing that knows is subtle, vast, deep and true. That is why there is really not a thing I can say about it. The knowing that knows is more the form of a certainty, a certain seeing in the dark that some might call faith. I understand what she is saying, but unlike Roberts I have no real way to speak of it. Perhaps that is why I like Roberts because she puts words to something that is perceived more from the heart than from the mind. When I read her words what I understand them to be saying to me is continue to learn to trust this other way of knowing. Even when I have no idea how to do that I believe that the act or impulse to follow this knowing somehow is a way that is basically wayless.
What obstructs this knowing is my preoccupation with my self. If I can remember to collect myself, abide within, then there is a subtle knowing that is available to me that is beyond my own intellect. This preoccupation with self is a life long habit that requires a curious and compassionate stance towards all the ways I forget. When I forget I realize it is an opportunity to remember and perhaps process the reason why I forgot. Why did I choose constriction over freedom? Why did I choose mental machinations over surrender and allowing?
Roberts says “there is more to ourselves than we know” and I believe she is pointing to the ground of our being that touches upon this Mystery, and in which we may come to know many things previously unknown to us. Both the mystery of ourselves, those hidden pieces of ourselves tucked away in the unconscious, as well as the mystery of Mystery that is beyond our normal way of knowing and apprehending.
For today it is enough to be satisfied with not knowing. To be satisfied with not having words or poetry or language to describe this Joy that lives in me.
